Arushi Mundergi Week 13 - Lots of Dreams
This past summer, I think I ended up finding the city I want to live in when I'm older. To be honest, it's weird to say that. It's weird to think that this time next year, we'll be getting ready to graduate, we'll know what college we're going to, we'll be figuring out how to be adults.
This realization ended up hitting me like a truck this last week. I'm seeing all my senior friends flying out for college visits, and I can't help but feel a little scared for what comes next, a feeling I'm sure you all must relate to as well. To be in a position where I feel like I actually might know what I'll be doing in my future is still absurd to me.
I know my major, my dream school, and now where I'd want to live once I start working. And all though where I see myself living in the future isn't across the world or even the country for that matter, I can't help but feel as though I would be betraying all the memories I have here in Fremont. To some extent, it feels wrong that I would want to move away from this city. The worst part is, I don't even know why, so I can't even justify my feelings in any way. I've had "the talk" with my parents about not necessarily staying near by, and I know that they feel bad. Once again, it feels so strange to say that I want to be independent and live somewhere away from them.
If I already feel like this now, I wonder how it'll be a year from today. Soon enough, most of us will have to leave our memories of Fremont behind, for the better or the worse. I won't be able to go to Niles with my friends that often and there won't be a Sujus nearby to cram annotations in anymore. I won't be able to force my parents to sit through a Jurassic Park marathon with me either. We'll all have to hold our memories close to our heart, because who knows if we'll ever get to relive those exact moments again.
BUTTT everything happens for a reason, right? I'm sure that whatever we end up experiencing is for the better. Ultimately, what I think I'm trying to say is that sometimes it's just that that unknown "better" is scary. A good scary, maybe?
Anyways, I'm sorry if I sound like I took a shot of depresso espresso next week when you're reading this!
I realized I never said where I want to live; it's somewhat of a major city in socal. Not LA, definitely not LA, but it's got great beaches and even better art museums with tons of Dali and Monet. I won't say just yet because I don't want to jinx it, you know :)
Here's to all our dreams! 🥂
Hi Arushi! I cannot believe that we will be seniors in a few months; after all, junior year is almost over. Time seems to go by really fast. Three years ago, we were just young kids entering high school. Now, we have to worry about college, our impending future, and how to do taxes. Like you, I would like to leave Fremont and explore somewhere new. It is scary to think about leaving everything behind, but it makes me cherish the memories I’ve made in Fremont even more. I love how you look at the positive side of not knowing how our lives will play out. While I haven’t decided where I want to go, thinking about the new adventure that awaits me in the future is exciting. The city that you want to go to sounds so fun! Beaches are always so relaxing and wonderful. I hope that you will be successful and fulfill your dream. Cheers to our futures!
ReplyDeleteHey Arushi! Like you, I have many senior friends that are going away to college right now and finding different states and cities to live in. It's quite a drastic change and it scares me that in the year I'll be in the same position as them. Also, I completely understand how moving away can be a delicate topic when it comes to parents. I’ve lived with them my whole life and such a sudden change will be hard to get used to. Nevertheless, I think moving away from college is an important part of growing up and allows you enough space to mature by yourself. Of course, it will be difficult, but ultimately it is a unique journey that will lead to me finding myself.
ReplyDeleteYou're writing style is quite intriguing and kept me focused throughout your blog. Each piece of information was broken down into smaller chunks of text which allowed me to digest the information without getting overwhelmed. You used capitalized letters for emphasis which made your blog seem more personal and emotional: “BUTTT everything happens for a reason.” Lastly, you used emojis and smiley faces sprinkled throughout your writing which made your blog comforting and informal. The techniques you used made it feel like I was conversing with you about the next steps in our lives as we put a close to our junior year!
Hey Arushi! This blog really hit close to home for me because similar to you, I have recently been thinking a lot about how we are so close to graduating high school ourselves. It is absolutely insane that all we've ever known here in Fremont won't be there for most of us in a year when we'll be getting ready to move to our colleges. Don't get me wrong, I'm extremely excited to finally be done with high school and experience the entire new chapter of college and adulthood. But of course, with adulthood comes entirely new responsibilities. I wholeheartedly agree that everything does certainly happen for a reason, and I'm glad you found your dream city! Sometimes the reality is bittersweet, but that's what it is. Overall, your blog was definitely relatable and enjoyable to read. I hope you get to achieve all your dreams and the rest of high school is a blast for all of us! :)
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