Amrita Week 15; Present and Future
Present and Future
I’ll be honest, I have no motivation to write this. In fact, I have no motivation to do any of my schoolwork or homework. Each moment of procrastination or debating whether I can sacrifice first period to get a little extra sleep serves as a stark reminder of my diminishing enthusiasm and commitment to my studies.
In these fleeting moments, it’s easy to convince myself that a few more hours of procrastination or the occasional missed class won’t have any significant repercussions. However, I'm acutely aware that each decision I make today will inevitably shape my tomorrow, and my future, whether it be a month, a year, or even five years from now.
And this philosophy extends far beyond the realm of academia; it manifests itself in every facet of my life. Each decision I make, no matter the context, adds up to produce what is going to be my future.
I guess what I’m trying to say is that the moments we live in and the things we choose to do right now are what we are going to be able to look back on one day. While we are always living in the present, we are also always living in a moment that will someday be a memory.
And with this in mind, I will finish writing and submitting this. I will continue to put my all into my work and my life, striving to create a future in which I can look back on my memories with pride. My hard work is what I want to be able to look back on with fondness one day.
Hi Amrita! Every single day, I seem to find myself in the exact same position as you. When I get home from school, I rarely have the fiery motivation to do homework. I always procrastinate until the evening or late at night, when sometimes, I have a little bit of motivation to do something productive. In the afternoon, I tend to get distracted and fall into the rabbit hole of Instagram reels or Youtube videos. As I’m laying on the couch and staring at my phone that is almost running out of battery, there is a little voice in my head telling me to get to work. However, as a procrastinator, only deadlines get me to work. Similar to your realization at the end of your blog, my mom always tells me that we must work hard now so that we have a better life in the future. I hope that all of us, including myself, will continue to put our all into our work and our lives, no matter what happens. When we grow older, hopefully we can look back and thank ourselves for our own resilience and hardwork.
ReplyDeleteHey Amrita! I completely understand the place you are in right now. For many students, life is getting more and more busy with AP exams fast approaching and finals lingering around the corner. Sometimes the stress can make me not want to work at all. Sometimes I want to give up and watch a movie. Sometimes I just want to wing it. However, there comes a point of realization in which I understand that the present affects my future a lot. In fact, my past does too. Each moment I make a decision, the result will affect me in one way or another. It is important that I think things through and value the interconnectedness of time.
ReplyDeleteI love that you created a new paragraph after every 3-4 lines because it felt like I was reading a more personalized and causal piece of writing instead of a boring essay. You use relatable language to discuss this topic which allows your audience members to sympathize with you and think about times when they have felt similar things. Overall, the structure of your writing greatly aids this blog as it allows you to connect with your audience. Great writing! I hope to read more next week!
Hi Amrita! I am sure there are so many more people that relate to this blog than you can think. Especially with the ever so stressful AP Exam week coming up, it is so easy to lose sight as we are so close to the end of the school year; being burnt out is a feeling I would certainly not recommend for anyone. Personally, it helps for me to think that there are only a few weeks left, and then a huge weight will be lifted off of our shoulders! I really liked how you shifted tones from demotivated to a more determined attitude, something that is commendable and a reminder for us all that no matter how burnt out we are, we will appreciate ourselves more if we accomplish our goals. Thank you for your blog.
ReplyDeleteAmrita, I don’t think there’s a single person out there who hasn’t been able to relate to your blog at one point in time or another. Motivation is unfortunately not a never-ending pot of gold, and we all run out of it at some point. I really enjoyed the way you portrayed those negative emotions that come with being unmotivated, however. That “stark reminder of [your] diminishing enthusiasm and commitment to [your] studies” is something I’m sure many of us have felt, and it only serves as a seed for more un-motivation. In addition, that domino effect of one day, of one moment of procrastination affecting your “tomorrow, and [your] future, whether it be a month, a year, or even five years from now” is frankly terrifying, but I appreciated the way you portrayed it in a more positive light.
ReplyDeleteI also really enjoyed the way you concluded your blog. With tying back to your original hook about being unmotivated to write the blog, and ending by ultimately pushing through to finally “finish writing and submitting this,” your introduction and closure provided a subtle second source of motivation for your audience, as your completion of a pending task inspires your audience to do the same. Overall, I really appreciated this week’s blog—thank you!
Amrita I really cannot stress how much I can relate to your blog this week, like I literally have no will to do anything these days, studying sucks, homework sucks, extracirriculars suck, and even the things I used to enjoy seem to be just random stuff that I do in passing now so that I don't feel as much pain. With everything coming up, AP tests, finals, all the APENG stuff this week and whatever else is going on in my life, it's hard to keep up with everything and have the energy to do it all, like I literally took a 4 hour nap before waking up to realize I really need to finish these blog comments on time since I'm prone to forgetting all of this stuff is due. I think the hardest part is realizing that if I don't do things in the present, then I'll be discontent in the future especially since when I procrastinate I often end up losing sleep and that's probably why most of the time I end up averaging like 5 hours of sleep a day (this is also thanks to doom scrolling but that's not the point). Really I wish that things could just stop for a week or a month or even a whole year...except I realize every time that after a break I really cannot get back into the swing of things to keep up with all the work that piles up and suffocates me. Then the cycle repeats itself and I keep suffering and procrastinating, trying to find the will to do anything in my life.
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